Sybaritic

Cheap isn’t free, Sarah. It still adds up 

Build credit on what you don’t finance & fund yourself first. You never have money for anyone to even borrow, let alone have. 

Do you believe in the clarity of charity? 

Get rich, act poor 

But don’t be a jerk doing it. You get what you give, giving death the eternal right to live. Strive for the importance of excellence in all you drive yourself to find & do 

First impressions are everything according to the way the front desk answers the phone when it rings 

Let me get my things 

Let’s bring something to camp with while we have the house revamped. Take your valuables or store them somewhere. We’ll be gone likely a few months. 

I thought it was weeks 

I changed my mind. You’ll see why 

I don’t reply because it’s unnecessary but you understand. There’s no room for reprimand once we’re wearing our wedding bands. This is where the receding verdict stands.

 

It isn’t free because it isn’t cheap to get started 

You roll your eyes discretely but I still see it out of the corner of my eye sockets as you slip your keys lightly into your pocket. 

What did I do or say? 

Sometimes a man just wakes up in a mood. It’s nothing personal to you

 

If you say so 

You should learn to trust me more 

What for? 

What kind of question is that? You inquire, gently reaching for your circumcised hat. 

It’s just hardwired into my brain for anyone, regardless of who they are personally/professionally. 

You’re just in brutalized pain

 

Pretty much 

The right meds keep it bandaged 

It needs to be healed, not masked by false, cheap makeup. That’s not just cheating, thats greeting death at the door to apprehend your last breath. 

You are so dramatic. 

No more than you because I am you 

We are each other. Kind of hard to fathom even figuratively. 

There’s no escaping me because there’s no escaping you. 

Unfortunately that’s true & it’s inherently way too much. 

Not with just the right touch. 

I blush 

You love that quaint rush, strong enough to diagnose you, and faint enough to dose you 

 

I don’t want to be overdosed 

That’s why I said faint. Observe my words more closely, my dearest lover, wife & friend. I wanted to give you a better life & I’m absolutely going to keep my promise. Then we’re sealing it with a passionate kiss before I usher you into the living room to show you this

I point to the coffee table where you are able to just walk right up to it, without a drastic fight, enabling it to talk to you, while you show it off primitively. 

It’s the equivalent of an engagement ring or a brand new model car right off the lot. 

It’s hot! 

I knew you’d like it 

I love it 

It’s your own space to hide in when you need a vacation so we don’t always have to take a plane. You don’t especially like airfare. 

I prefer the wide open road. It’s how I grew up for 6 years of my childhood. 

That’s a chunk of time 

That’s right. 

Made my entire night

You blew that money though 

I never did it again & we’ve more than tripled that loss in 5 years. 

Left me in tears. I bite my lip, sourly. 

That’s when you still got paid hourly too. 

Those were the days 

Be glad you don’t live them anymore 

Im very grateful but most people with my confused condition end things early with themselves, statisticians say. 

Fucc what they say 

Well that’s a requirement but the debt never leaves. 

You need a vet for that surgery before it commits perjury to be examined properly. 

Don’t play with me, boy 

First, I am not a boy. I’m also not an irrational sex toy. 

Who said you were? 

If you’re sure 

About what? I didn’t employ you. You hired me. 

I can also fire you

I don’t care. I don’t need this job. It’s just close enough to my apt to rob the gas stations of my money You’re sweeter than sugared, clingy honey

More like syrup 

Yup 

So you just stroll over here? 

I walk, I don’t stroll. I also never troll anyone 

That’s a reputation to keep 

Sounds like it 

You are sharp. I love your wit, humor, ability to banter with me 

Horses naturally canter

 

You’ve also said that before. 

Compliments don’t get old, Sarah. 

They do if you don’t mean them, Mitch. 

Here’s a sales pitch to ditch the b*tch in you that still wants & loves a good fight no one thinks you can win. You still want to prove them all wrong & you will. You already have & do daily. 

Snitches are b*tches that land in ditches regardless of what airline they take & when their flight actually is. 

That’s a hard concept to bake out of nothing. 

Take it from the bank and learn to thank me later. 

Don’t be a hater. 

It’s all love here, love. 

What have & do daily. 

Snitches are b*tches that land in ditches regardless of what airline they take & when their flight actually is. 

That’s a hard concept to bake out of nothing. 

Take it from the bank and learn to thank me later. 

Don’t be a hater. 

It’s all love here, love. I’ll save that for later. 

What were you just thinking of? 

Nothing important 

That’s the lie. It’s always important with you. Others are less important to me, besides my parents & my deceased wife. 

I just want the very best out of life. 

Walk with me, talk with me & you’ll get it sooner than you think. Just don’t forget to blink that rational set of all natural eyelashes you’ve had since you were nine, and just remember that you are all mine. 

I flash them at you, remembering the time I fled, not seeing you for 3 years. 

That was painful 

To a degree I demanded the end of before it cost me my outrageously oversized life. 

Your son is highly autistic & you have anorexia, along with other mental health issues everyone else pretends they don’t have 

I manage to laugh, graphically. 

 

So slow down & stop blaming yourself for fat shaming the pretty girl in the past & reopen yourself to see this obnoxiously vast orb we’re floating on because it’s floating while it’s globally gloating. 

That’s insecure

Those are Hollywood’s strangest rules

You don’t swim in designer pools in designers homes until you sign the terms & conditions. The policies are stricter than they were. 

What about you & her? 

You look at me starkly but your eyes still sparkle

Who’s the sparkle for? 

You. It was always for you. She was a foolish distraction that bullied you illegally. 

Im not legally blonde. 

That’s the best thing you’ve said all day

 

Take a seat to religiously pray for yourself & others. 

I don’t have a family. There are no sisters & brothers, aunts or uncles. 

Where are your parents? 

I can’t reveal that yet 

Well don’t forget or you might regret it 

Why? 

Im just shy 

How is that related? 

You’ll see

 

Cheap isn’t free, Sarah. It still adds up 

Build credit on what you don’t finance & fund yourself first. You never have money for anyone to even borrow, let alone have. 

Do you believe in the clarity of charity? 

Get rich, act poor 

But don’t be a jerk doing it. You get what you pardon from death row. It wasn’t for show 

Who wants to show that? 

Sick people, adversely additional to who & what you sybaritically know so be careful what you throw & how far you try to throw it. 

Noted to the devoted devotionals I’m writing. 

I’m proud of you 

Thanks

If you only knew I’m not pulling a dank prank. If you only knew. 

 

green light to construct manual instructions into the next violent will our ancestors still haven’t signed. 

What the hell are they waiting for? 

An invisible invitation I guess 

What a fuccing mess 

Return to sender 

Impressive

I have my moments sealed inside an otterbox defender that creeps into my closet at night to have sex with my phone while it only thinks it’s alone, trying to forget not to blink, speeding on the skating rink to brink of the violated rooms trying not to stink while they sink into their alcoholic drinks & pink outlines that stand out for a nursery. 

You’d make a good nurse with the right purse 

What do you know about nursing? 

My aunt & mother were nurses

That’s incredible

Until they take advantage of you full time without ever being convicted of a unanswered, unanimous crime. 

You can’t sue them?

 

You sign paperwork that removes that liability from them. You basically ban yourself from reevaluation & reimbursement in any way they can sneak away with it 

That’s a crime 

That’s what I just said 

Time to nickel & dime the American people? Don’t think so. Don’t be so sure of that unless you want results you weren’t expecting. 

Are you expecting? 

Duh

You could have just said yes 

You get that answer when you ask me stupid questions so then you won’t 

I bet I won’t 

I bet you will 

You know well 

Who told you? 

You did in hybrid motion with static emotional connections on the radar, picking it up off the hood of the car. 

How far? 

Far enough 

That is the cancer of every question you don’t answer, switching places on me with a freelancer I don’t even know that paid a foreign dancer for her art on set of the wet regrets she already had. 

Is it that bad? 

It was 

Why did she return? 

She didn’t want to let some important bridges burn so she let the chef churn the butter, uttering a single left handed word of silence, written upon the lips that drip with dips of lucrative sips, displayed proudly upon upon the shoulders of the distant soldiers that don’t want to fight our wars anymore. It makes them spiritually poor, robbing their families of their youth & forbidding them to find uncredited truth that anonymously reports it’s findings as well as other things to the lack of charity bringing clerical clarity to the forefront of our ambiguous lives that truly strives for the abundance we are unequivocally looking & aiming for at the end of the day & some of us don’t even pray. That’s all I’ve got to say 

Thank you, your honor. 

Well that concludes this hearing. Court is adjourned as honor is significantly learned & proudly earned. That’s why you didn’t want those bridges to get burned, ma’am. 

& just like that, that’s exactly who I am. 

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